Sexual development 4

Name:	Louise Walker
E-mail address:	louise.walker@gmail.com
Subject:	My sexual development - continues
Message:	The next episode in my life is by far the strangest. It does not involve anything other than nudity. Its the context that makes it strange. For those who have my accounts of my meeting with Ally on the St George's Hospital Site and Creative Jottings Blog will no that I'm very board minded. I'd only been at the district school about six weeks before the summer camp. I hadn't really gotten to know anyone particularly. The summer camp provided the opportunity to meet and get to know the two other girls. Let us call them one of them Mindy & the other Windy. Obviously not real names. It turns out that Mindy lives in my neighbourhood almost diagonally opposite corners. Her house as a pool but the house, grounds and pool as seen better days. But at least it had a pool. She began to invite me over. She and Windy where already best friends. Now Mindy had a brother lets call him Mork. One day I'm over Mindy's with Windy and we are by the pool. I'm in a once piece swimsuit and Windy is in Shorts, I assume bikini bottoms on underneath, and a bikini top. Mindy is in a bikini. Mork approached us and we are introduced. Prior to this he'd kept his distance and seemed content to spy on us which I'd commented on. We got into conversation which I can not recall in detail up to the point where he mentions the summer camp. He skirts around the topic a bit then asks did we enjoy flashing our bits and pieces at the boys. Well the truth was until I went to that summer camp I was not at all interested in boys or girls. But since the camp I'd discovered two things. Firstly I had became interested in what other people looked like underneath their clothes both boys and girls. I'd begun to have waking dreams as I called them then but realise they are actually fantasies now. I'm a very visual person. Secondly I discovered that if you touched yourself while thinking about such things you give yourself some very nice feelings. I'd discovered quite naturally masturbation. My mum and dad weren't against nudity but neither where they for it. I'd seen both naked and they me. But we always dressed and undressed behind closed doors, or kept our backs to each other if at pools etc.. If moving around the house we where always dressed to some degree or had a towel wrapped around us. So I blushed and felt myself going red at Mork's comment. Windy told him not to be so disgusting and it was none of his business. He said that he'd like to see us naked. We told him exactly where to go. I however could feel that special feeling between my legs but secretly wished some how he would make us. I also was looking at his shorts in the right area wondering what he'd look like. He then said that he could make his sister do anything he wanted. I noticed Mindy suddenly look frighten and pale. She said for him to go. Mork said that if he wanted Mindy would stand up right there in the yard and strip naked. Windy said well that was nothing her being his sister but she very much doubted it. Mork told Mindy to stand and strip. To my utter amazement and I'm afraid to say enjoyment Mindy stood and removed her bikini. She had a great body I thought but it was the first time I was looking at another female with a 'sexual' eye. I'd seen her naked at camp when we where going to or getting out of bed but that was just naked. This was being sexually nude. I didn't say a thing but just stared at her breasts than bush and then whole body. Windy told her not to be stupid and get dress before someone saw. Mork said she would not dress until she said. Mindy looked very uncomfortable nearly to tears, definitely embarrassed and humiliated. I not realising yet was just enjoying and making that obvious to my shame now and poor Mindy's regret. A truck or something made a noise and Mindy grabbed her bikini and dart to the tree and bush to shield herself from the back door and windows. Both she and Mork looked in that direction clearly looking for their parents. I was just watching Mindy's naked bottom has she hurriedly tried to dress. It wasn't their parents but Mork had decided to return to his layer leaving us girls. We didn't talk about the incident but remained very quiet until Windy managed to find a different subject to talk about. I didn't get the opportunity to visit Mindy again for a good few weeks. The long vacation was coming to a end. The house we where living in was a temporary rent until dad at long last purchased a house. He was planing to stay in Washington for at least five years. So we'd been looking at houses and making arrangements to move. Also the weather had turned unseasonally cold and wet so sitting around pools was not the thing. Once more the weather had brighten up and warmed up and we where around the pool. I could tell that Mindy was hesitant about something. She had started a topic a couple of times and then changed it. eventually, she said that she need our help. Windy and I both sat up and paid attention. She looked around then stood up and removed her swimsuit completely. Windy just burst out laughing at the strange behaviour. I however just looked once more at the beautiful body. I'd spent a lot of hours in my bed reviewing the original incident and fantasising where it could have led too. I dreamed of Mork making me stand and strip. I dreamed of seeing the three of us in a line naked. So I was enjoying the view and hopeful this was going to lead somewhere but still feel quite apprehensive of being naked here and now, or indeed naked and being seen by Mindy and Windy or Mork who I was sure was lurking and watching this. Mindy but her hands on her head and said that Mork had something on her and that she need us to help her. Mork wanted us to do what he wanted and if we did he wouldn't tell their parents about Mindy. To this day I do not know what Mork had on Mindy she would not say. She said it was to awful to tell anyone but Mork would tell if we didn't do what he wanted. Further questioning obtained the vital information that what Mork wanted was to see us naked. It emerged that Mork had seen Windy naked a few times when they when younger and Mindy dropped the bombshell that he'd spied on Windy when she slept over and had seen her in various states of dress or undress. Although very nervous but also excited at the idea I agreed out of a sense of wanting to be friends with the girls. Looking back now and having thought about this curious incident I think I should have told my parents or Mindy's. Quite what I would have told them I don't know. I've thought about what it was that Mork had on Mindy but I have dismissed all my ideas for one reason or another. Mindy eventually dressed after we agreed. Days went by with no requests then Mindy said it was to be Tuesday. On the Saturday before when we where around hers she gave us both a note which Mork had called her into the house to get. I read the note it said, Please bring swimsuit and bikini and a set of your mothers underwear. I was very puzzled about the later request and we talked about it. Windy was concerned about taking some of her mothers clothes how would she get them out of the house. That made me think too. That night Windy called me. I did not have a telephone in my room so made conversation difficult. We both eventually agreed to the terms and told Mindy who looked very relieved. Tuesday came and I made my way over to the house at the time given to me. When I arrived Windy was stood naked in the centre of the living room. Mork had open the door to me. He simply told me to take my clothes off. I stood near windy in the open space in the centre of the room. I asked where Mindy was and Windy said she was in the basement. I was now tingling. I was in shear delight and absolute fear. My mind wanted too. My body wanted too. But I did not. I was breathing hard, so hard it hurt. My heart was pounding in my chest and ears. I need to go. my pleasure zone was wanting the latest new method I'd found for stimulating myself. I was worried but not sure about what. What I mean is I was sure something was going to happen to me and I did not know if I would like it or not or what it was. I knew what sex was and that it was wrong but not the actual mechanics of it. In those days I didn't know about such things as spanking, being tied up, pubic shaves, streaking etc. So I was stood there thinking I hope he doesn't do that to me or make me do that. I took off my top to reveal my bra. It was a condition that we came dressed and brought our beach wear with us. I then took off my shorts to reveal my panties. I was trembling by now. Next was my trainers and socks. just being bare foot like that seemed very naughty. I knew if found out I'd be punished for being naughty and naughty if you understand. Next was my bra and I did cover best i could. I had not perfect any technique this being my first time stripping for a boy or another girl. I mean striping as opposed to undressing. one is a natural act with no sexual cogitation the other is sex charged. I struggled to remove my panties and that was that I was naked. Two things here. Firstly, Mork had looked at me. He certainly saw all of me. His signal to drop my arms which I did afforded him a even better view. But he didn't .... not sure of the right word here... ogle me, devour me, actively with focus and precise scrutinise me. I was just a young girl of 14 striping naked in his front room that happen to be in his eye line. I hope you understand the situation from my description. Secondly, I was more interested than Mork in Windy. From entering the house and seeing her naked I could not take my eyes off her. she was stood completely uncovered arms at side or just naturally doing things like running her hands through her hair, ruling her upper arm with the opposite hand, and so on. Although I'd looked at Mindy her two strips where unexpected so I just gazed at her as opposed to look. Although I didn't expect to see Windy naked in the room, I did expect to see us all naked that day. sometime in the last week I'd formed the intention to look. which is what I was doing as I walked over to my spot. During my strip I'd watched Mork and Windy equally. Windy had looked at me and smiled and definitely focused in on my sexual parts and probably compared. I'd check out her lovely firm breasts. My description from the memory picture I have just created in my mind. I know at the time I enjoyed looking and noticed how different they where to mine or Mindy's. Mine where really like fried eggs still. I needed a bra but they weren't dumplings like Windy's. Mindy's where like poached eggs. Sorry for the egg metaphors just had them for my tea. I took in her brown muff and could see her cherry lips. I know when I saw them I had my first pang. I'd thought in my mind that Mork would see my bare breasts and bum but hadn't really processed my bush etc.. My thinking was that guys had something to see down they we didn't Crazy or what? Windy also showed off her bum due to turning to watch me then generally moving around and me moving slightly backwards and forwards passed her body. Now naked I was quite frighten as well as expectant. Mork just said to go down to the basement. I was now really concerned. basements where always dangerous places in the horror movies I'd secretly watched. In the basement Mindy was stood naked. That was it just stood naked. We joined her and Mork left us there. She thanked us profusely. We chatted and consoled each other. I had chance now to looked over her body and Windy's together. Her blonde bush was much thinner than my black bush or Windy's brown. her bottom was very sharp, no puppy fat like mine and Windy's. Her vagina lips seemed moist. I hadn't at that time seen myself naked when enjoying myself. I'd always been under bedclothes or in the bath tub. I noticed something else that I was checking out my own body. Looking at what I looked like naked. I was wondering what they thought of me and this strange situation. Did they think less of me. Did they think i was dirty? Mork reappeared our swimsuits in hand and told us to put them on. he watched us dress and said we could please ourselves what we did until he needed us. We went out to the pool and discussed what had just happen. After sometime Windy asked me what I thought of her body. She said she had seen me 'looking". I said I thought it was find. We then compared our body's which gave me goose bumps. This was the first time that someone was talking about my naked body. We stayed out until lunch time Mork not bothering us at all. We went in to make sandwiches and where sat around the kitchen table. Mork appeared when Mindy shouted she made him a sandwich. He entered the kitchen and looked at Mindy. She took off her swimsuit without being really asked. He then looked at us and just stood there. Windy stood from her chair and looked at me and began to remove hers. I just followed on without saying anything. We stood the three of us naked and Mork just turned around and left. Windy asked if we could dress. Mork repapered and causing me to obviously jump. All he said was for us to wear our bikini's that afternoon and left again. We stood there for a few seconds which seemed like minutes and Windy turned and left the kitchen for the living room and her bikini. After a few more seconds Mindy and both moved. We'd not been in the room since the morning. Our clothes where as we left them except someone had put our underwear on the coffee table with our bikinis. My mother's underwear was gone along with Windy's mother's. I've never seen it since. We got into our bikinis and Mindy said we should put our clothes in her bedroom like we normally did. She carried them off up stairs. Mork did not bother us all afternoon. getting nearer time to go for dinner I went in the house and up to Mindy's room to change. Once in my clothes I went looking for Mork. I asked for my mother's underwear and he said that he was keeping that as insurance that we didn't say anything. I left very uneasy about mum finding her underwear missing. I had chosen a old set which I was sure see wouldn't miss for a day until I suck it back home. But permanently gone. It was weeks later that out of the blue mum mentioned the missing underwear. I blushed and hoped she did not notice. But I think she did and to this day I've never told her. We moved into our new house after that and I had to change schools so never saw them after that unless I bumped into them in town or at inter school events.

Sunday, June 13th 2010 - 12:43:46 PM